I just had 3 days off and i did a whole lot of "fuck all". Friday i hit up ska jeffs for a gathering & that was pretty swell! I got drunk enough to have a permanent smile, then drank a shit load of water for the rest of the evening. On saturday i went to see this movie called ONE WEEK. Its about a guy who finds out he has stage 4 cancer, so he buys a motorcycle and bikes across canada. Kind a generic story line really, but i really enjoyed the movie. During the previews there was this movie called ANVIL, a documentary about the metal band doing a tour after like 20 years of not playing. The preview itself basically brought me to tears because of typical band shit you see them go through.....just shit i can relate to, and in a lot of ways it reminded me of being with KFF- then again, it doesnt take much to remind me of those days.

I always think about this one time in particular, for no reason really....anything can just make this memory appear. On our way on tour, back when jerry was still in the band, we were driving and the song "lean on me" came on....we all started singing along, making complete asses out of ourselves. But at that moment in time, it felt like this would be forever. I feel like so many of us played such an important part of that band, and so many are now long forgotten.

Anywaysss, other weekend i went to go see Atmosphere......i keep talking about it a lot, but in all honesty it was one of the best shows i've ever been to. He played a shit load of tunes i know & love, and thoughthe crowd was full of college kids, it was energetic and no bullshit happened. I danced and rhymed off lyrics like nobodies business, and it felt great being surrounded by strangers, making a fool of myself.


I spent today roaming around town with Miss Verch. We checked out her & brando's apartment, and im really stoked for them to move into their new home! Moving is hectic, and a pain in the arse....but i love new apartments, rearranging things and creating a new environment for yourself.....i dig it.


I really want to buy a new digital camera..... but there are better ways to be spending my money these days. Preparing all our Cass Ette shit will be quite costly, and getting ready to play shows in August. Im super excited for our house show with the Rough Sea (at ska jeffs may 29th). It'll be a nice way to meet friends and jam, and drink our faces off.....hahaha. Even more exciting news about that show is that Jade, Dawna & Couch will be visiting!

Im finally tired and need to sleep, as im working 12 hour days again this week.....ahhhh!!! (i keep telling myself its worth it!, and it is.....$$$) Im stoked for holidays in july!


i love this photo of Ella! I made her this really lovely necklace with mother of pearl, flourite & sea glass. She rocks it all the time.... :)

eau 'd bedroom dancing

I cant believe i have to be in this city for another 3 years. FUCKMYLIFE! Overall, i dont mind the place.....i forget that im in "the big great capital" and often feel like im in a small town. I make the best of it though. Days like today i get fucking frustrated with the people, the "scene" and lets not forget the fact that every band is so catergorized and glorified to fit some stupid genre.

As much as i love my job, my "bosses" and the kids.....I often think i should have stayed in Toronto. I think it would have been better for Cass Ettes. We're different. We dont fit into some fucking mold. The good thing is with Jennii in Toronto and me in Ottawa, we'll be able to play weekend shows in each city whenever we want.

To be honest, whats bothering me most is that i came from a place that even with all the bullshit & drama & small town crap......we were a unit. Parties & Shows were always a riot. I was able to play music anytime i wanted, with whomever i wanted, and I smiled a lot more than i do now a days.


I miss the void a lot and the people who were apart of that place. I know people thought the place was a dirty hole and the people there were hoodlums with nothing.....but underneath it all, it was a home that welcomed anyone, no matter what you wore or what you listened to. People used to say north bay was a "clique-y" town....but it so fucking wasn't. The void was a place you could walk into one day and hear Blind Guardian or Converge blasting, and the next day you would hear Tracy Chapman & Fleetwood Mac.....and everytime there was a bunch of tattoo'd drunken folk singing their asses off.

I wish i had that feeling back. The feeling that I always had somewhere to go. That place always made me happy. On the nights i couldnt sleep i would walk there and pass out on the couch in the middle of a party, and no one bothered me. I had my best sleeps on those dirty couches...snuggling with mama Jess.



I guess overall i miss Gavin. Its hard for people to understand why i care about him so much and why I think pretty highly of him. I recognize his faults, but truth is....no one is fucking perfect. The difference between my friendship with him, and everyone else's friendship with him, is that I have no problem saying "no" to Gavin. Infact, i enjoy his pouty little face. But when i look past all the shit, I see a non judgemental face. A face that makes me laugh all the time. I think our friendship is so strong because im honest with him. Im realizing a lot lately that people dont like Honesty. We think its a good idea. We think its what we want. But no one likes to hear the truth. Im not saying my truth is RIGHT, Im just saying its honest.....and thats all i ask from people.





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Obviously they aren't the only people i miss.....but I get to see most of my other friends more often then these folk. Growing up and moving on fucking sucks. All i regret is not spending my last days in north bay with my friends and wasting time with KFF.....and what a waste of fucking time and energy it was.

I moved to Ottawa because of them....and now im stuck in this fucking city, when i could have been anywhere in this country. Im lucky NB folk visit me, and i have steph or I'd fucking go insane.

rah rah rahhhhh!!!!!
I make the most of everything, and thats the best i can do.

On another note, Jennii & I are going to a Chalet in Quebec with my bosses in July.....this is going to be a good time to put in good jam time before we record!

and in the end, its love.

its MONDAYYY! yeehaw! Im exhausted from this past weekend! Another visit from Couch to start off the month of May, and she brought along lovely Miss Jade! We had a jam packed weekend full of drinking, show going, and tattoo's!!!

Friday couch had a tattoo session with miss Guen Douglas at Planet Ink. She started a wicked peice on couch's rib cage of a pin-up styled lady on a trans am, with a desert background! Couch is pretty hardcore cus she sat through it for 3 hours and didnt make a sound! I wish i had a photo of it to show everyone, but its not my tattoo to show! So amazing though! After that we went out to see a band called CHINESE FOOD and RUDEBOY @ the rainbow! Now this venue gets a lot of flack, but i think its a rad place, and it reminds me of Wylders in north bay! I pumped couch and jade full of beer, to ensure a good time would be had :) After that we headed to Ska Jeff's house for a swell party! We showed up fairly late and apparently a lot of folk had left, but i think we were all so drunk by then that we had a swell time regardless! Met some swell folk and had some laughs, then we headed home.

Saturday we ventured to the tattoo parlour again so i could get some work done by Guen as well. I think shes an amazing artist, and everyone at the shop was very nice and friendly! Ill post a photo later in this blog. We decided to take a tour of parliament, as Jade & Couch have never visited CAT TOWN before! Then we hit up the museum of nature, and visited the dinosaurs & birds! We also had a swell lunch at the infamous SO GOODS, and it was fucking SO GOOD! After Chris Caisse joined us and we went to mavericks to see Orphan Choir, Old Boys & Brights. It was an awesome show and I've waited two years to see Orphan Choir! I was definitely not disappointed (even though i didnt know one song they played!)

Sunday was cut short and sweet, as my NB crew had to leave me! The weekend went by super fast and i miss my ladies already! I dont get to hang out with Jade that often, as she normally works when im in the Bay, so it was awesome spending FUN time with her!!!! I couldnt pass up the chance to kiss this lady!


Anyhow, a few weeks ago my friends in the Hometown Hecklers came and played a show in Ottawa. I was insanely excited to see them, as they are also a group of friends i rarely get to spend time with when visiting North Bay! I havent seen them play in over a year, and fuckkkk they improved & progressed incredibly!!!! I love watching bands progress into something great and something fun! They are, hands down, some of the best people around! I love you guys!


They brought up two more north bay friends, Becky & Aaron. I invited everyone over the morning after the show for breakfast and i made them raspberry pancakes, and Miss Verch provided us with some homemade maple syrup! It was amazing, to say the least!




now CASS ETTES!!!! Jennii will be here, in ottawa , in roughly two weeks. Im fucking excited about it! I know our past is tainted and poisoned, but i think we can work through our shit. We know the mistakes we've made in the past and I hope we both work hard to not make those mistakes again. Im really excited about recording a new EP, and to listen to our old recordings which are now mastered!!!! We even have two live sets that were edited and mastered too, so im pretty pumped to get this shit going. We will be recording our new EP righfully titled "FAKE PRETENTIOUS LAUGHERS" with our friend Jon Parolin in north bay this July! And for even better news, we'll most likely be adding mandolin into some of our tunes (cross your fingers!!!) We have lots of shit to do once jennii lands, and im stoked to get on it!!!!



So, my new tattoo is for my pops. As some folk know, my dad is my hero and probably the only reason I am the person that I am today. We've had a hard past together, and at points of my life i swear i hated him. Being older now, and understanding the process of growing up.... I really appreciate the person he is, and the decisions he's made (though many choices i know he regrets). I never hold anything against my father for the simple reason that he realizes his mistakes, and he's apologized for them and continues to do so often. I think this is a really important trait in someones personality, and im glad he passed that trait onto me.

A long time ago, there was a point in time my dad didnt think he'd ever see me again. I know this situation really fucked him up. He busted ass and did everything in his power to find me. During the 80's it wasnt very often a man was granted custody of his children, and my father was one of the first! Im forever thankful for his willpower and the fact he never gave up. His first tattoo was for me....a black unicorn with my name in a banner. I plan on getting the same tattoo eventually (minus my name!) I know this tattoo may be some what typical, but i put a lot of thought into it. The horseshoe represents my dads love for horses, and the luck (good & bad) that he has had in his past, and for his future. I dont get to see him often, so i feel like hes always with me now. He hasnt seen it yet, but i hope he likes it!!!!!

Anyhow, i ran out of things to say. I get to see ATMOSPHERE THIS WEEKEND! ahhhhhh